Fear of the Unknown

Overcome with bravery and courage.

What's holding you back? What is it that you desire the most? Last night I went to bed late. I tossed and turned most of the night. I even tried a breathing exercise twice to help relax my mind and body. That didn't exactly work! My mind was cluttered with images and thoughts. My thoughts were things that happened that day, things that I want to do, things that the kids and I need, things that I would like to do and acquire, and other things in general that most take for granted.  Then my thoughts went to the things that I was doing wrong and the wrong others have and are doing to me now.

Does all of that stuff really matter? No! They don't. They don't matter because God is in control of everything. God provides for us whether we want to realize it or not. He stands with us during our trials and tribulations. It is our responsibility to turn to Him during our time of greatest need. Have you done that? Are you willing to do that? Sometimes He will make it so that we don't have a choice.

I was in stages 1 and 2 for most of the night. I found myself dreaming, if you will, about trying to get away from my ex-husband. I can't remember what the kids and I were doing before we started running. I motioned to my son to grab my purse because it had my phone it.  We were in a house. I don't know whose house it was or how we ended up there.  We ran down a hall and went into this room and shut the door. I was leaning on the door to keep my ex-husband out because of the force he was using to get in. He tried to grab my foot from under the door. When he couldn't he kept poking a knife under the door to try and stab me in the foot.

Come on now! With the space between the door and the floor this is not even possible. At any rate, I found myself kicking in my sleep. Trying to keep him from stabbing my foot. I leaned my body up against the wall and put my feet on the door to keep it secure so that I could call the police. My you my ex is 6 feet 2 inches tall and about 250 lbs.

That dream was more about my fears and the things, or people, that are holding me back from accomplishing my goals. Let's dig deep peopl!!!! What are you fearful of? I thought about all of the things that I wanted to do. I wanted to be a model. I had the size and the look of a model before I had my daughter. I let my ex-husband talk me out of it. We weren't even married at the time. Whose stopping you? Or, who are you blaming? Don't hinder yourself. Get rid of the excuses and turn to God. 

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Rose